So it's been awhile. Sorry.
Today's confession is this....
I'm so tired of being the bad guy. I know Boomer is having a hard time with everything. But good grief.
I'm the one constantly being told, 'I hate you!', 'You're the worst mommy ever!'.
I'm the one dealing with crying, yelling, outright defiance, anger, and sadness.
And on top of all that of course I'm dealing with my own stress. I know that I'm the adult here. I'm supposedly better equipped to deal with my emotions. Or its just not socially acceptable for a 27 year old woman to throw a tantrum in public. Really its not socially acceptable for a six year old either, but try telling Boomer that.
I feel like I owe my mother a HUGE apology. I was the same age as Boomer when my parents divorced, and I had this theory that 'the squeaky wheel gets the oil.' So oh boy did I squeak to get my father's attention. Not only did it NOT work, but it made my relationship with my mother strained and awful. Especially the teen years. Woof. I almost don't like that girl. I was mouthy, angry, and would just not do homework for weeks. Fortunately I went to a private school with VERY understanding teachers, and I also got my act together. But....yeah mom...so sorry. (I've actually apologized to her IRL, cuz Momma Boom isn't a BIG blog reader. She stops by here when I specifically ask her too.)
There are good days, and there are bad days, but I'm so over being the 'bad guy'!