Tuesday, June 24, 2014

While the Blog Was Sleeping

I have missed this blog.

I've missed writing and interacting with all the amazing people I've gotten to know across blog land.

Depression and anxiety make even the most basic things hard. So once Boomer was fed and taken care of, and I'd done my work that was it. That was all I had. When you see those ridiculous 'Depression hurts, but you don't have to' commercials...and there is like a shadow following the animated girl around? That was me.

Except less of a shadow and more like...invisible weights. Weights on your body and your spirit.

What's worse is the awareness that you are not yourself, but feeling incapable of affecting change.

I feel like now, I'm getting back to myself. I'm ready to make an effort to go out and be social, to do things that I enjoy, and be present in my own life.

This means actively making choices to not sit on my couch for an entire weekend. To not blow of social engagements and....well like I said just be present.

The post I wrote last week about the #OHBlogger's meetup? What I didn't write, was that I had to make myself get up, get dressed, put on makeup and go. The effort was worth it though, as you can tell from my post.

It's all about the journey right?

6 comments:

Kathy @ Vodka and Soda said...

i hope you're on the road to recovery. i know it can be hard but making the effort to reach out to others and do things that feel "normal" (or used to feel normal) is a good way to start. wishing you all the best!

-kathy
Vodka and Soda

Amanda - Voyage of the MeeMee said...

One day at a time. Here for you! :)

Gwen said...

I can't tell you how happy I was to see you in the blogger meetup pictures! I've missed you online and I'm glad you're getting back to yourself. You have a lot of people you don't even know who care!

Setarra said...

Those invisible weights are always the heaviest weights of all but don't forget to take a deep breathe in and exhale through each moment as you go through the motions. I'm so happy your back in the blogosphere and am sending airhugs of support your way! You got this girl.

MarlaJan said...

Thank you for being and open and honest. Depression and anxiety are real things, and the results can be crippling. So glad to see you back sweet girl, and take the time you need to feel yourself again! <3 <3

Misty, Handbags + Handguns said...

I'm still not back to myself yet. I'm trying.