I've missed writing and interacting with all the amazing people I've gotten to know across blog land.
Depression and anxiety make even the most basic things hard. So once Boomer was fed and taken care of, and I'd done my work that was it. That was all I had. When you see those ridiculous 'Depression hurts, but you don't have to' commercials...and there is like a shadow following the animated girl around? That was me.
Except less of a shadow and more like...invisible weights. Weights on your body and your spirit.
What's worse is the awareness that you are not yourself, but feeling incapable of affecting change.
I feel like now, I'm getting back to myself. I'm ready to make an effort to go out and be social, to do things that I enjoy, and be present in my own life.
This means actively making choices to not sit on my couch for an entire weekend. To not blow of social engagements and....well like I said just be present.
The post I wrote last week about the #OHBlogger's meetup? What I didn't write, was that I had to make myself get up, get dressed, put on makeup and go. The effort was worth it though, as you can tell from my post.
It's all about the journey right?