Sorry this has been kind of a wash of a week as far as posting goes, but yesterday I took my very last final exam!
I turned in my french exam, my professor shook my hand and told me congratulations. I think I was floating. I certainly did a little happy dance at the bus stop. I then went and picked up my cap and gown from SBX. They gave me this beauty along with my purchase.
Funny thing. I collect shot glasses, but in the 20+ years that I have lived here in Ohio I have never purchased an Ohio, or Ohio State University shot glass. But now I do.
As I road the bus back to my car in west campus for the last time....it struck me. I've been in college, in some form or another, for the past 7 years of my life. (I took about a year total off after I had Boomer). The entire time that JJ has known me. The entire time my child has been alive.
So now what?
To be perfectly honest finishing my degree always seemed just over the next ridge. It was always next year, in a few quarters, next quarter. And now its done. I knew after having Boomer I needed to finish. I couldn't expect her to attend college one day if I gave up on my degree. (And receiving an education in our family is a foregone conclusion. Its not are you going to college, its where are you going. In most cases you're expected to get a few degrees. Lol...I'm going to need some time.)
Again I'm left with now what? Its been a part of my identity my entire adult life. I have a little jobber that I'm thankful for, and of course I am still looking for a full time big girl job. Everyone has so many questions now. What are you going to do with your degree? When are you going to graduate school? What are your plans? I feel as woefully unprepared for those questions as I did at 18 when I was asked to declare a major. I'm grown up now, and I still don't know what I want to be when I grow up. As someone who is no longer responsible for just herself though, I don't have the luxury of taking time to 'find myself.'
Sorry that this is a ramble, but that's what is on my mind today. I can't tell you guys how excited I am for this weekend though. I feel so loved thinking about the people that are coming to see me get my diploma and celebrate this accomplishment with me. There will be plenty of pictures and stories to share next week. My besties from Southern will be here, along with my brother, my favorite cousin and of course my love Boomer. (Who is SO happy her Momma is done with school, and is also insisting I carry this during the ceremony.)
Have a great weekend everyone!
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